Any addiction is bad. Whether it's cutting, purging, drinking, smoking pot, sex, or whatever, it's bad. So why is it, if someone is addicted to cutting, that person is labeled as a freak, "unpopular" and not worthy of social contact with the rest of the "normal" crowd. It still remains an addition- a way of escaping some kind of pain. However, if a person gets heavily into the partying scene and abuses drugs and drinking, yeah it's bad, but no one's gonna bring that to anyone's attention, because it's drinking, and drinking's cool! So if someone uses that as a way to escape something, they shouldn't be shunned, because they're doing normal stuff. Cutting=drinking. Every addiction is relatable in someway, yet they're still classified in levels of "cool." Anyone who drinks might as well cut themselves, but then they would automatically be considered uncool. So if I no longer cut, but I now drink, does that mean that I have made no recovery? Or are you just dismissing this because now you think I'm "normal?" Is it okay to get high because I do it with other people? Whereas cutting was a one person activity? Can I be honest with you?? I'm scared. You're helping me less and less, and I don't know if that's such a good thing. I guess I'll just go on pretending I'm happy...

I don't know how often I'll be on DA. I haven't written anything worth reading in a while, so sorry. Kinda confused and conflicted about things and I'm not sure if DA is working...